I caught up on your thread. Was hopeful and actually got some anxiety for you..... Silly Me!
I am still in the house with my X. I think about you and your situation often. My feeding of my actual cat, who is almost feral now, is so weird. This cat used to sleep plastered to me every night. Then I got a dog who pushed her away. I miss that cat. But my little dog sleeps in her spot now.
And I continue to feed the cat. And evidently a bunch of messy birds, too. So I guess my continuation of the analogy is my good intentions of feeding my cat have gained me a bunch of messy pigeons. I guess we can do the right thing and get the wrong results.
Take Care Of Yourself!
Aloha,
Wendy
Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32 D final 9/12 Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!