Yep, it's not an easy road to walk. That's how life is. We have to fight and scratch for every bit of it. We also have to figure out what the purpose of forgiveness is. It's times like these in our lives we can see the contrast and more readily accept why such things are important to all of us on this spinning rock. People are people and at the end of it, relationships with people are all we really leave behind of any value.
How you go forward is important. It's important to how you are going to live your life and the kind of person you are. You are being true to yourself T. You are trying, and have been trying very hard for a long time. You've learned, you've changed, you've grown up. Regardless of your W's choices, that doesn't stop for you until you're done with this life. Your W, your kids, and especially you will look back on this time and have to reconcile your actions and choices. I believe you'll be pleased with what you see, and so will your kids and even your W even if she chooses to be around or not. I think anyone will be able to see you have values and you live them. They will be able to see that you are a man who acts on his values and sticks to them even when many thinks he shouldn't (I'm sure you've heard dissenting opinions from friends/family.) I value that and I think everyone does, even if they don't say it.
As TVS said, you have been kind, compassionate, patient, understanding... You still are.
Be patient, be consistent, and be you. You won't regret those things about you. Keep to your goals and be you.
Now get outside and enjoy the weekend. It won't be here forever
Peace, AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
