thanks guys, It just hurts thats all. I moving 99% od stuff out today and leaving just the couch and light and TV to stay here at rental till i have to go on 31. I dont know how that will work out but it is better then staying at my dads. yes you guys have no idea how bad it is at my dads and what i will put up with. this is going to be hard for me very hard. i think leaving this rental is also hard as it holds lots of good memories for me. also one more thing i have to let go of. really what can i call mine at this point no home to come home to even this last wee. it is not a home it is a shell.
Yes i wanted to talk to W today and tried to stop by the weekend job to say hi. again she was not there and i hate that. She says she needs money but she is not working at the 2nd job any more as far as I can tell. The joint account has a minus amout in it and the DB coach told me to leave it lets see what she does.
all i can say is it feels like she walked off the face of the earth the past week or since i last saw her. I do love her and sure i always will i just pray some day that it will work out again. and that is the hard part waiting. But like it has been said it took 3 yrs to have wife talk to you.
why is it i have such a drive to know where my W is living? this eats away at me every day..
Just lots going on in my head with moving lots of feelings...
