I am so scared right now and I cannot even piece together a rational thought. I got a letter in the mail today saying our mortgage is in default. H told me he has been paying the mortgage and he has always been the one in charge of all our finances. How did I let this happen?? He always wanted me home not working outside. We have always had financial issues and whenever I mentioned getting a job he said no it would end up costing us. I actually thought I may have seen a few tiny baby steps the last few days from him and now this. I can't stop shaking. I keep trying so hard and I just feel like I keep getting kicked in my guts. Every day that I don't cry and can take some steps forward feels like a tiny victory to me and now all I can do is sob. I hate feeling like this. And of course he is not answering any of my texts. Thanks for listening. Take care.
