Can you talk about your excitement about getting to know yourself in New ways as you go through your 180s?
Some of it is exciting as in I am discovering things I never thought I liked but really enjoying the spending time with S and doing all the things my F did not do with me. I also do enjoy spending some time by myself reading at a cafe which I never thought I would. My next venture would be taking myself out to the movies and see how that goes. Between S and work and a little bit of time for myself, I haven't had much time to explore more. I do my monthly or bimonthly volunteering at a "soup kitchen" which I have been doing for some years now and find it enjoyable. I need to keep with this pace and learn to discover myself.
Originally Posted By: Dubious Hills
When I made that plan I thought crazy, big, and wrote in pencil, because plans can change... so why NOT bring the impossible you to life now? Worst case scenario you learn you don't like that you and you erase something from a piece of paper.
You are correct, I have had to adjust my list of things I wanted to change/add that I carried in my wallet a few time. Some got removed because my state of mind was different when I created the list. Some were superficial things to make W notice and she did. So I am thinking more things just for me and not of those things W had issues with since this improvement I want is for myself.
I have been able to think objectively look at my stich and more about myself. Some things I have not thought about from reading other’s self-reflection on the boards. The more I look deeper within, the unhappier I got of some of the issues and baggage I have carried. I have to keep telling myself that people can change for the better including myself and make a change for a life time. But first I need to think more about why I feel/am the way I feel/am. Will put thoughts down as I have time to write them down.
Me:36,W:37 M:8, T:13 S:3yo, D:10yo (mine) BD 10/12 and 01/13 DBing since 02/13 W moved out 8/13
