MLC step by step...what's next?

[Lilith]

Thanks Snodderly!
Unfortunately yesterday (my b-day)didn't went well for me. I didn't feel good and quite sick (colds, cough, feverish) so I didn't do anything special or nice for me :-(

Today, I stayed home (feeling better) and started cleaning up my storage room; there's a lots of things that I need to get rid of....(old stuff, H's stuff that he forgot etc.) It's hurts seeing those things that has memories, sentimental values, things that became part of our lives; Its difficult and I'm really having a hard time to accept that these will be gone forever. I could not finish sorting things out...I just cried!!!

As if it wasn't enough pain...awhile ago a friend (IT man who work with us) let me know that the computer in H's apartment is ON the whole day while H is at work...that means OW is in his apartment right now. It hurts it hurts...my mind is spinning,there's again the "movie" playing in my head, I want to get this OW off my mind....it's driving me crazy!!!

Now, I told the friend (nicely)that he doesn't have to report to me anymore any information about H's computer activities or whatsoever. This friend of course has been very helpful in the past months in finding out about this OW ...but now I decided it has to stop now...'coz I gain nothing but pain.

Continue moving forward.

HOW can I continue moving forward???
Please help...I need help!!!

Thanks!