Lost her love or MLC?

[Alias71]

I took the plunge and decided to meet people! I've been GAL-ing in different ways but it's only the 2nd time since BD 9 months ago that I've actively set out to try and chat.

Didn't feel in the mood at all and the closer that I got to the pub the less I wanted to go. Eventually after sitting outside for a few minutes I took a deep breath and paced inside...into a corridor where I stayed, "looking" at posters, for a few more minutes.

After "bounding" up the stairs I found my way into the pub. I searched for the "meeting" and found where it was taking place. I then proceeded to watch a couple of Led Zeppelin videos on the screen (I hate Led Zeppelin!)

After watching the Led Zeppelin videos the fear of meeting people (in my present condition) was less than having to see another of those damned videos and I strode into the room and greeted the 3 people that were there at the time.

It was all very pleasant and and after a couple of drinks and with more people joining us I was able to relax.

Unfortunately, I had to leave after 2 or 3 hours because the transport connections are very poor here.

It was great feeling human again. Being able to speak in my native language instead of struggling to understand the Czech that would be thrown around me. It was a good evening and well worth the hours journeying.

I didn't tell my WAW that I was going (a mistake? I don't know) but, strangely, at 10pm I got a call from her asking where I was and after telling her (another minor mistake? I've always told her the truth and I'm struggling to act "mysterious" in this respect)and saying that I would have to walk the 2 miles from a neighbouring village to my own she offered to come and pick me up. I thanked her but declined the offer as it was already late and that it would be better for her to stay put and to try to get a decent sleep.

I just found it so curious. She wants me out and perhaps even a divorce and yet she would be prepared to stay up late and give me a lift home.

The main thing though is that I got out, had a nice time, had a few laughs and connected, to a certain degree, with 3 or 4 people. (And 1 of those people was a pretty brunette which was an added bonus!)

(Things haven't changed here though. She's still very cold and distant but for today, at least, it doesn't matter quite so much.)