Hi Tad, sorry to hear about your mother, I've read your situation and your relationship with your mother, I believe nows the time to get really close to her. And hopefully you will both get a healing. I sense in you some form of a rejection issue from the very distant past. I suffered with a rejection issue for over 40 years, but I believe it's now been sorted out!
Love and Best Wishes to you and your family. And please send my love to your Mum.