P..what has occurred is common amongst most of us. Don't be too hard on yourself. Sure, its best not to be emotional in front of our S, but what is done is done. Just get yourself back on track as quickly as you can. My DB coach told me that if you cry in front of them, they feel one of two things, that you are trying to make them feel guilty, or they cannot bear to watch you being so hurt. That can force them out the door. It works best if she stays and you can show your changes. As hard as it is, try to be composed and upbeat when around her. Don't temperature check the R. If she responds negatively, leave it alone. You are taking the high road and that is all that matters. Let her deal with her negativity. Its not your concern. This stuff takes a lot of self-control, but it will empower you once you get the hang of it.
They all say they will never R, my H did the same, and we are back together working on our M. They can change their minds. Focus on yourself and your child. That's all. You cannot control what anyone else does. Keep reading and posting.
