As much as I love C.S. , I would really like to hear YOUR words and thoughts on it...
My thoughts are that I am obligated to love her even if I am not in love with her at that time. And maybe that's been easy so far because, though I've had my own tough moments, I'm still in love with her...I think.
Am I? That's a good question.
But my actions, the way I have stood by her and shielded her and loved her no matter what, aren't me paying her in kind for the damage I did while she put up with me while I was mentally sick. It's just me doing what I'm supposed to do...what I think the "right" thing to do is. And I rest my head at night in peace believing that.
But if she wants to divorce me, I have to respect her wishes as well. Respecting her desires is showing her love...putting her wants/needs above my own. But divorce doesn't mean I have to stop loving her.
If she needs space then loving her is giving her space even when I don't want it. If she needs time then loving her is giving her time even if I don't want to. If she wants to never see me again then loving her is leaving her be, even if that's torture to me.
Love and obligations...I think W and I have different definitions at this point in time - something we would need to address if reconciliation ever was desired.
M:12y - BD:12/11 - D:6/13 - 4Ds
"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy." -MLK Jr.
