Yes. When I started LRT back in Feb. I was ready to leave the M. I was ready for a release from the pain. LRT and MWD teaching me to take care of myself and all of you helping me grow and me making myself stronger... now I feel that I can withstand "limbo" a little better and maybe a little longer. But I have a boundry. One that I have been clear on with my W. That is, I cannot be in a M with her while she is in an A with someone else.
I'm working through it in my head. Thanks for listening. Right now my instict is to pull back when she leaves. To give her some room but not ignore her if she reaches out. To not initiate contact but to be available. Different from before this "visit" but safe enough for me to not get hurt by petty expectations of "if" she responds to me or not.
My gut tells me round 2 of the A is about to kickstart. If I'm waving my hands "over here!" My W will not be able to continue processing the A and AP. My sister once told me..."she can't see where she is really headed if she's always turning around to fight with you".
Ok. I'm getting there. I am a person she would be a fool to leave.
Me(F):40 WAW:44 T:13yrs M:9yrs BD:2/12 (I saw a text) ILYBINILWY: 5/12 PA admission: 12/12 (began 3/11) S:2/13 Moves in w/AP D begins: 7/13 W moves home to R: 10/13
