Trying to stay in it, keeps getting harder. #3

[jp787]

I can't keep my head from spinning. I really don't think I'm in a very good spot right now. I have the privilege of having two Cs if I want when I go to IC. I'm meeting with both of them today. I spoke to one of them on the phone Tuesday regarding my obsession with wanting to tell OW about my pregnancy. She suggested I write a letter to both H & OW and bring them in to discuss as a form of therapy. I wrote them yesterday & am scheduled to see both Cs in a few hours.

I think that is a great plan and hope it helps!

Also, on another note…H left his computer on the counter yesterday with the instant message conversation from the day with OW open. I read it. He doesn't know & he didn't leave it up on purpose. He rushed into the room when he realized what he had done & slammed the laptop shut quickly & was nervously looking around. This was in our kitchen & I was in the living room with the girls when he came in to get the computer.

In the convo she said she wanted his baby & her biological clock was ticking. He replied with 'get in line'. She said what does that mean, what are you saying? I thought you slept in separate beds, I thought you were only with me? And added several red faced emoji's. He replied back with 'I'm kidding'. She then asked him if he was in or out with baby making? He said that they needed to get in the same city, let alone state first, and then he'd probably be 'in'.

You know this only hurts you right?

I would guess he will say whatever it takes to keep the calm with OW.