what you said means a lot to me. The 2 therapy sessions i had yesterday helped but i still feel down. depression is something hard to get out of. but i will. i did it before and will do it again.
I need to just stop texting WAW for a little and work on finding a house to by. I was looking to rent but the market by me is slim to none for what i want. I need to give WAW a chance to miss me and to reply to the good things I have been doing for her. I was also told to stop doing for her at this point. So i feel better today but still not that good.
I also want to thank everyone for telling me how it is. Being hard on me when needed. this place does help.
It is just hard to do NC i told my theropist and DB that NC is hard and i feel the longer the time goes by the less of a chance there is WAW will come back. But DB said that has not been what she has seen. It can take a long time more than what i have done so far. that kinda helped me just hope she was not saying i to make me feel good. I know i should not think that but I did and do. but I have to try and Trust the God is working through the DB team and you guys.
I want things better now !!! and i know better but just sharing my feelings better out then in i say.
