When home last night after work. Played with kids. Put kids to bed. Told W going to bookstore. It was closed. I sat in parking lot listened to audio book on codependency. I came home. W yapping about d falling out of bed and if I placed her in bed wrong lol. I said no put her in middle of bed. (Laughable) I sat down in same room as her and read a book. Didn't say a peep and neither did she. Had lots of anxiety yesterday. ended up talking to her mother. Something I'm not proud of. New day today. Went to gym. Now at work.
Going to try to go to Alanon tonight and then open mic after the meeting.
Come to realize that I beat myself up to much on this stuff. My W has her own set of issues that I am DONE taking responsibility for. I had a very anxious day yesterday. Today it subsided. Realizing most of my anxiety is self inflicted stupidity.
