MLC step by step...what's next?

[Lilith]

Journaling:
When I woke up this morning I decided to be more upbeat than usual days (inspite of the weather...cold & heavy rain, terrible!!!) 'coz afterall it's my b-day today.
Before going to work I passed by a bakery to get some cake to treat everyone at work. When I reach work, H was already in (talking on the phone)and other employees; I just said "Good Morning everyone" and rushed to my office.
After an hour or so...H came in in my office, Kissed me (on my cheek)greeted, & handed me a B-day card. A funny card, just typical card that he would give. I didn't expect anything more other than this. He went inside his office and was surprised when H came back with a present and gave it to me. While I was opening it, my eyes were already in tears...I hated myself at that moment (why in the world can't I not stop being sentimental!) H was asking if I like it and I just nodded and said thank you! He was still trying to say something that I didn't pay attention anymore... I could not face 'coz I was avoiding & was ashamed that he sees me crying...He was also telling me about a friend who's father just passed away...and all I did was just to nod. The moment H saw that I was having a difficult time fighting for my tears, he said goodbye and went and got busy with his work. I know H or MLCer doesn't like seeing crying but I can't help it!

I really hated myself when I can't control my feelings in times like this. I am a very sensitive person but sometimes VERY and I hate it!

Can anyone help me/give me some tips on how to work on this?