T - Wow, not what you once imagined on your 20th anniversary I bet, incredible. But, what is the saying about looking into the abyss is what keeps you out of it? It sounds like the fact that you have opened the cage door and she knows that the events she has set in motion might actually happen, by your hand not hers, has jolted her to attention.

You are a great guy and clearly have learned a lot from this experience. I hope that this brings her back to you and that great things come from the MC. I know, I know, no expectations, and if you end up D, I hope those lessons stick with you.

I know in my case, I am a guy that can revert to my old ways once the pressure is off and these need to be lessons that really change me, not just temporarily. It sounds to me like these are not going to be temporary for you, just a hunch.

Hopefully there will be a 21 and it will make up for 19 and 20...

CB

Me; 42, W; 43
M; 16 yrs
S12, D9

3/13 - "I want to move to XYZ City (four hours away) and it might be without you, not sure"
5/13 - "Not sure I meant that"