How about the first thing you do is to get your mind off of your W? That would be a start. You're obsessing over her.
Let me tell you something. I've seen people on here whose WAS left them with no money. I've seen the WAS leave people who are terminally ill AND no money. I've seen WASs who leave a terminally ill spouse, with no money and take the children away. And in each of those cases, they never failed to see the bright side of life.
You're just moving in with your dad. That's a plus in that at least you have somewhere to go. Build on that. Take that trial and keep moving forward from there.
You say that you call out to God for help and that you're not hearing anything. Have you ever thought that you're not listening? He gave you the tools that you need. No one is going to spoon feed you like a baby.
You don't like your job? Then change it. Ahh but you're going to complain about how bad the job climate is, etc. There comes a point where you have to stop complaining and start doing.
He's right. There came a point (and I still have these moments) when I realized that God was answering my prayers but not EXACTLY how I wanted them answered. I had some special orders and was so ungrateful that I wasn't getting exactly what I wanted. Take my son. He was born fighting for his life. Today his health has improved tremendously. My daughter was born with no medical condition. How grateful do you think I should be??
Lately I've been wallowing because I want H to take a stronger approach to reconciling. IC told me that the growth we have made means more to our relationship than what I want him to do.
So in other words. be grateful. Consider making a gratitude list. Everyday write down one thing you are grateful for. After a month read over your list. It REALLY helps!!
I got one for you. Be grateful your dad is healthy and is willing to help you.
M 42 H 39 T10 (-2yrs separation) S8 D5 DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA) Reconciled 6/2013 Separation in works 1/2017
