W talked to me for about 30 minutes tonight about her new job. She is really excited about it. I am so happy for her.
Gotta watch out for those buts>>>BUT, it is so hard for me to sit and talk with her.
It shouldn't be this hard. Obviously I am nowhere near detached. I am still hurting alot. It is always in the back of my mind, when I talk to her, that I still love her so much.
You are still so early into this, G. Dont be so hard on yourself.
Maybe this is selfish but I also think that WE have been cheated. We never really had money problems (didnt have alot but didn't really struggle either).
You were very fortunate. ^^^.
Oops, the but again>>>>>But now with her new job, she is making significantly more money, she enjoys her job much more which makes her happier and it is more fullfiling. We are not going to get to share this with each other.
No, you are not going to get to share that at this time. I know, though, that you love her unconditionally so you are truly happy for her anyway, right?
You know, G. This all suckks. It does. You feel what you feel. I get that. I believe, though, that everything happens for a reason. And I think this was a journey you and she were meant to go on.
This is a wonderful opportunity to become your best you. And yes, life doesnt happen the way we think it is going to. We just have to accept that. No one knows what the future holds, G. That's why we have to make the present worthwhile.
So for now, be happy that she is happy and fulfilled in her new job. That's what we wish for those we love - without any buts, right? And live your life the very best way you can.
