No longer treading water, must either sink or swim

[Grizz]

W talked to me for about 30 minutes tonight about her new job. She is really excited about it. I am so happy for her. BUT, it is so hard for me to sit and talk to her. It shouldn't be this hard. Obviously I am nowhere near detached. I am still hurting alot. It is always in the back of my mind, when I talk to her, that I still love her so much. However, with that being said, we had a great conversation. There was a good give and take, we laughed a little. It was how it should be.

Maybe this is selfish but I also think that WE have been cheated. We never really had money problems (didnt have alot but didn't really struggle either) but now with her new job, she is making significantly more money, she enjoys her job much more which makes her happier and it is more fullfiling. We are not going to get to share this with each other. We road through the storms of a miserable job, not much money, stress of young kids and now that all of this is much better we don't get to experience it together.