journalling:

another good/productive "work" day.

earlier, I appeared a little dizzy/light headed so h asked why? i mentioned because I was weak. He wondered why I had been drinking all the boost drinks., he thought it was for losing weight. And commented that I had lost weight (he finally noticed??)...I said no, i was trying to gain weight. That I had lost so much due to stress. I was concerned if I was too skinny, he said no that I was looking good.

(I should have let him believe I was losing weight to look better...vanity... not stressed and unhealthy)

Caught him several times today checking out my chest area...hmmm, guess he has a pulse after all!

He also said hello to a woman at the coffee shop. Normally I would have asked who that was. 180. I was not jealous of her, so didn't ask.


M:46 H:49 T:20yrs
myD:22
H distant summer/12
H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12
BD: Dec 2/12
asked me begin to move end of Jan/13
moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff)
"agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)