Not confused...trying to keep hope alive!!!

[BRNR]

Thanks for the advice Snodderly. Fortunately, my meeting with the mediator was only to ask questions about the mediation process and not really of anything substantial!!!

I did call him and he asked me if going to a mediator was something "I" wanted to do. I responded and just said that if it was something he felt he wanted to do than we could try it. His response was that he thinks it is the best option for everyone. WTF! is what I was thinking. He then asked about my scheduling and said he would schedule our first session. Ugh!!! I guess I am really doing this.

I am so heartbroken that things have come to this...I really don't want this and know that i have no other option but to accept that the love of my life wants nothing to do with me anymore and found the love of his life in OW. <sob> Why me? What did I do to deserve this?