So journaling. Got some great Ee support on below night. Plus talked to ACOA rep. I still have a long way to go on me and my work. Everyday is a struggle with detachment.
So tonight was sort of a perfect storm of events. I had baseball game at 530. Left work accident jammed in traffic for 40 minutes. While traveling home weather changes for worst. Not sure if game going to be canceled but I'm the coach so I needed to at least show up at field . I walk in door and w yapping how she doesn't want son playing no matter what . I tried to explain above that we need to at least show up until canceled. She gets huffy I was a little huffy. I go to field solo and guess what my son only one not at field. Game canceled .
After I got back I apologized and owned my behavior . She made snide remark and turned on silent treatment for the night. I didn't enguage. Made my apology owned my piece and walked when she provoked.
Here is where I disappointed myself . After this about hour later she was getting ready to go out. I asked her where she was heading. Caught myself but to late. Overall I'm disappointed in my lack of detachment today. I took her crap personal. The roller coaster ride got me off guard .
Again just journaling. Beating myself up a bit but moving on
