"But it bothers me sooooo bad that she really seems happy. She didn't confirm or deny (I didn't ask), it's just what I picked up. On the other side I'm desperately trying to detach and not let her affect me."
She's not doing anything TO you. You are affecting yourself.
"She acts as if she's been there for months! Maybe I need to make excuses in the future to avoid seeing her."
No then you're just running away.
"It just doesn't seem any good when I see her."
Again, she's not doing anything to you. You are affecting yourself in a negative way.
"It seems our interactions have been the same since she's moved out...not frequent and nice and friendly. No R or future talk."
That's a plus. You'd rather have that than argue all the time.
"I'm looking for some kind of change though. Not sure what, maybe just something to tell me that things are getting worse or getting better. I'm sick of the same. This limbo is starting to eat at me...!"
It's not the limbo that's eating you up, it's the expectations you have. You haven't been able to just let go. Learn that her actions are for herself and that the determination of whether or not they will affect you is up to you.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
