Okay, first thing first... The dress situation is under control! I got the dress about a month ago, with new shoes to match! I believe the term is "hot to trot"
Thank you all for your words of kindness and support. It does help me to pick myself up again
Of course I've been thinking about my convo with H last night and his possible trip.
He was kinda strange when talking to me, and I haven't decided if it was because he had been drinking, was the teenager persona, both, neither, chatty because of guilt... It doesn't really matter.
I have this feeling that he will go on the trip. He seems to have a lot of the details already worked out (airfare, hotel, estimated cost...). He has gone on trips before when I haven't questioned him on it or given him a hard time.
Who knows... Maybe as rH suggested, he will go, but it will be a turning point in my favor...
It still blows my mind that he can stab me in the back and betray me in the worst possible way, yet look me in the eye and act like all is well here. Messed. Up.
He's out again this evening with his brother, which he informed me about last night. I find it ironic that he gets fussy if he thinks I don't give him enough notice of my plans, but he has a different set of rules for himself. Lol!
He was all super nice and attentive this morning, which usually means he's up to something or feels guilty. He even commented on my new red heels!
Trying to have hope when things can seem so hopeless.
I am thankful I have wonderful and supportive people to pick me up and keep me going. You are all truly a blessing.
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
