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[steveh27]

I think enough hatred has been flung the last 2 days as it all just came to a head as I mentioned. I can honestly say right now, I will be ok with her moving on. I am there!!! I know what it feels like now - because she is now contacting me about everything. We had a bad argument this morning and she threw her rings and said take these. She was getting really emotional and confrontational because I said I was not sure if we could do this amicably through mediation right now because of what the last 2 days were like.

My feelings of sadness and desperation have turned into protection and anger in a way, that I really dont care what she does. Because of this, today, I am not sitting with a mediator but I said she is more than happy to go the route of getting a lawyer if shes short on time. Maybe when my thoughts chill a little bit and we stop having these arguments I will sit down in that venue.

I also mentioned that this OM will not be part of my kids life. Not sure if I have grounds to make this happen. It might be my emotions talking but Im really concerned of this guys character seeing as he's doing this to his family and also his wife is having medical issues, on top her dad's health is dire. Any thoughts on this from people who may know.

Anyway the tables of turned a bit with communication, she forcing communication lately. For example, her text today - "I know Im the last person u want to talk to but can you pls answer me". I was honestly in meetings and couldnt anyway - but it does feel nice to be on the other end a bit. And knowing that is doesnt mean anything either way - because Im moving on with her or w/o her.