Trying to stay in it, keeps getting harder. #3

[Tallula]

Tiny heartbeats...woo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So exciting!!

You are going to have ups and downs. Expect them. There were days long stretches that I was just MAD I was pregnant. Not happy about having a baby...AT ALL! At first I beat myself up. "What's wrong with you?! You know so many woman who would die to be able to have a baby, you ungrateful..." STOP!! Don't feed this BS self talk. Who wants to have their spouse cheat on them, emotionally/physically leave them...while pregnant. Um, no one, that's who. I accept my emotions, let them run through me ie. sob in a ball on the floor, punch something, write really awesome revenge fantasy's... My kids have helped me to be so excited. S4 is constantly talking about the baby and all his toys he will give him. D2 just kisses my belly and say "mama, baby in dere..." Ha.

Remember, tired until out of the first trimester...tired until you get out of the first trimester!

Focus on the here and now!! Who cares when you tell H. This is about YOU! And your kids! He can go fly a kite...