Seems like she was making escape plans and biding her time. Can't go into the details, but what I glanced at was pretty clear, and very recent, very sneaky, and in her "mlc" handwriting style.
I don't want to do this anymore, the lies, the secrets, the indecision, the fantasy. The being used.
Time to put reality fully in her court. I want off the crazy train.
I told her I would give her the divorce she wanted.
We talked a bit, I finally learned that she had quit with the online and PA...why now does she tell me? Why not when she was done? She said she thought I would know from her emails, well I looked over them last night and there was no real "I am done with that" sort of thing.
Maybe she is one of those that have to see it through, idk. But I'm not playing anymore, she's either in, or out, her choice (choice, which she doesn't believe in right now per her).
Making my appt with L for when school is out, I will not interfere with school.
To be honest, I am hoping that she won't sign, that this will be a wake-up of sorts, like in rH's sitch, but hope is just hope at this point. I will follow through if she doesn't try to stop it, I need to move forward, with or without her. She can stop it, and show a real desire to try, at anytime.
I feel so bad for the kids, if this goes through, especially the youngest. Ugh.
I am sick with that thought, and all of this, NOT what I want!!
Any thoughts, advice, 2X4's etc welcome as always.
T^2
oh, now she just emailed me that she is considering us going to a movie tonight....and that I should wait before talking with my IC...wth?
In the depths of winter, I finally learned that within me there lay an invincible summer. - Albert Camus
Uncertainty is the very condition which impels people to unfold their powers.-Eric Fromm
