Not confused...trying to keep hope alive!!!

[BRNR]

Thanks Snodderly for the 2x4 and your response on what you would do if you were me.

I am so unsure of what I want anymore, so I think the advice sit quietly for now is probably the best thing. I know-I am waivering again. Although I will say this time I don't feel that it has anything to do with what has or has not happened. More of me maybe accepting the reality????

I am having more and more days now where I want out of this marriage. Weird!!! Not sure why i feel like this. But, I know this is based on some type of emotion. I also think it is partly from the aspect of I know I deserve a good guy in my life...and H is far from that right now. I do miss him a lot, not sure if it is what I would call the "in love" feelings anymore.

I have been fearing this possibility...of falling out of love with him. Partly because I knew my decisions on what/how/when to move forward would/will lack any compassion for what H wants and needs.

But here I am, on the board none-the-less, still trying to save my marriage...I just don't know why at the moment.

I am starting to see/feel that I will be good with and without him, and no longer fear the outcome of my sitch.

Wish I knew God's plan at the moment and what is in store for my future, but no matter, living for today, and will leave tomorrow for tomorrow.