Affair forecast:stormy with a chance of a break-up

[reachingHigher]

Hi Tvs,

I'm sorry you're down. These days happen. Fear about the future, disgust about the present. I know, I know.

The thing about the potential vacation...first, it may never happen. There have been several events planned by my H that never happened. Two, it may happen but it may not be the pleasure H & OW envisioned. He may return with a different perspective.

My H has had plenty of activities, also, he insists on doing, that he only looks back on and has regrets. Not total regret as he is still needing to play out these teenage urges, but he does so and then looks back and sees it's not in line with what he wants so he steers some course correction.

How many times have I gone over in my mind...why did I have to be the one to sign up for this? Why couldn't I have married someone who wanted to try to work it out as badly as I do? Why couldn't it have said on the marriage certificate...to love and cherish and endure an MLC...then I could've known what I was getting into!

Sigh...I s'pose we all loved our spouses so much at that time we would've believed our love could have conquered anything. Anything! And most of us would've probably married them anyway!

Just musing.

Thinking of you, girl. I know it hurts. Even when intellectually you know it's getting better.

I hope your busy day at work helps keep your mind off your sitch.

When is the company meeting in June? Did you order your dress yet from NY&Co.?

Hugs,
rH

P.S. Did you see on my last post how my H bought the Movado watch on eBay and didn't tell me? (thinking of the $ your H is spending). And as my H is moving his stuff back in, I see a lot of dress clothes -- fancy ones -- he obviously bought while out on his own. They have to have their $ spending apart from us. Just seems to be part of the whole MLC package. It hurts too, I know. And doesn't seem fair at all!

And while my H didn't have the A (as far as I know) I do know he bought these clothes to go out with women, dance with them, impress them, etc. It disgusts me to think of it. But I just have to detach, and accept and be happy for the progress we are making.