T, you never have to apologize. And no, you do not sound like a broken record at all.

The idea of this forum is a sharing of feelins and ideas and the coming together to help each other.

You are being honest and real. That is what it is all about.

And that is exactly right. It is like a wound that is being picked at.

And one day, I hope soon, it will be allowed to heal with you in a new relationship with your h.

You are doing something that is so very difficult, T. So, you are allowed down days and hurt feelings and feeling tired of it all. All of it is ok.

I want you to know that you are often in my thoughts with me pulling for you and praying for you, every step of the way.