NILWY - There is this "chemistry" b/w us

[Kim65]

KD I know that our R did mean Something to H. And that were way many good times and very few bad, non really?? It's just that not hearing from him since I moved out makes me sad. Even a "hope ur ok" would be nice.

I did a "no no" saturday night. I'd been out, had a good time and had a few drinks (well more than a few lol), came home and started thinking how much I missed H. I ended up sending him a text message at 2am in the morning. All I said was "I miss U H :(", but I know that has probably set me back. Needless to say I've there has been no reply, nothing!!...

I am feeling positive about our upcoming holiday, although there are family and friends that think I'm mad for going... They are worried that I will only take a step backwards and be back to square one. I've told them I'm not going with any expectations, apart from having a good time. If H does go back on his word and not go I will be disappointed as it was his idea that we still go together. But I will still board the plane and go anyway, I need the break, recharge and think/reflect.

I'm see myself as an old pair of shoes, that are comfortable and know that they fit well, which have been shoved into the back of the wardrobe as you don't quite want to throw them out.

I see the OW as the bright shiny new pair of shoes that have taken the place of the old ones. You wear them, think they look nice but the longer they are on you feet you find they are not as comfortable as you first thought. You then find they cause blisters and make your feet hurt. You then realize that you would much prefer to be wearing those old comfy ones after all.... We shall see??