"and not sure how to meditate or where to learn more about it.
"Bond, wouldn't you say Im addicted to my rel'p or H? (I don't know if addicted is the right word),"
No you're not "addicted" to your H. This was your H who you trusted and he broke your trust. It's human nature.
"but Is this not a place where I could learn about co-dependency?"
IMHO, sometimes there's a problem when people toss around the word "codependent" all the time. You depending on the other person and they on you is how M is. Someone in the relationship may rely on the person more, but it's a choice on both sides and it's not always a bad thing.
"Recalling our R talk from the other day. H did alot of the talking and admitted that our sex life was wrong. That he felt justified in expecting me to perform for justification for the amount of work he did and the facebooking I was doing."
Was what he said true? It seems like he wanted "validation". A man gets a sense of his own self worth from his job. The bigger picture is that maybe he didn't feel like you appreciated his efforts. Did you spend alot of time facebooking?
"I guess its too late to bring it up again with him, huh?"
Yes don't bring it up. However, it gives you an insight as to what he was thinking. File it away with all your other insights and correct what you can.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
