What does it mean when a man spends an hour spewing, not blaming you, but hating life, telling you he's not going to change, ending the conversation w/I'm moving out and then in the middle of the night, smells your hair wraps his arms around you and pulls your back close to him? Maybe men know what goes through a man's mind?
I was too tired to do anything, but he stayed there until he woke up sweaty and then put a pillow between us and held on again. He has not held me, full on back hold....hands under my breast for over 2 yrs. Before that, he spent the night defending his calls to EA, and his big mouth telling her about the grand-baby. Again, saying he's going to know her foreverrrrrrr!
In the morning he said he was spewing anger and was trying to get his phone to block her calls the last few days. HUH! He said I (me) did nothing wrong, and left angry.
I don't think he realizes he held me...maybe! I'm reeling...not for him, but for answers for me, my next step!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
