First, Don't be afraid to say how you feel. If you feel as though it's not working for you that's ok! It's a feeling. You're entitled to your feelings. However, L4ever if you believe that it's not working for you...then we have a problem.
You've DBing for a short time. Even if you first logged in to this site back in Aug that doesn't necessarily mean you started DBing that same day. I can tell you from my experience that H left 7/11, Read the book 9/11, I logged in 10/11, Didn't really, truly practice DBing til 2/12 AND didn't see the positive effects it was having with H n I til maybe 6-8mos after that.
DON'T USE MY TIMELINE AS A GUIDE! It's only for reference. Everyone has their own timeline and their own results.
If you don't want to do DBing, fine. Go to a 12 step program. Believe me, they practice very very similiar principles and they don't make a profit and been around for almost a century!!
Also, listen to MrBond. Happiness comes from within. How can we be more depressed than a terminally ill child, seriously.
M 42 H 39 T10 (-2yrs separation) S8 D5 DD 7/30/11 (EA&PA) Reconciled 6/2013 Separation in works 1/2017