Not confused...trying to keep hope alive!!!

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Hello everyone -

I have been thinking...a lot ....but that is no different than any other time.

I spent the majority of my weekend GAL. I hung out with some girlfriends into the wee hour of the night on Friday, babysat my friends 2yr old on Saturday and had lunch with her afterward, went to a bay shower on Saturday as well, and lunch with different friend on Sunday. In between, I was ready books on healing and loving myself, and cleaning my house and running errands. Needless to say I am exhausted.

My head is back in the game at work, so much so, that I am caught up with the things on my desk and now I am just cleaning up my office.

So, I stayed away from the boards for a few days trying to get my mind right and what my next step is...and I need an opinion(s).

I am leaving some things out as replaying things right now wears me out. So if anyone has questions, please ask.

So I meet with the mediator, he gives me lots of information, legal information, and information provided to him from H. H has NOT filed the actual divorce. The mediator said typically that is not the case and when he asked him why not my H said it was too much paperwork. Mediator also said that H said quite a few times that W (me) doesn't want the divorce. I did confirm that with the mediator.

So, my question is, now that I have met with the mediator, should I approach H and say lets go, or should I wait for him to bring it up again?

I see an even amount of pros and cons, but curious what others would do in my sitch.