To be perfectly honest, in your case it's not the program failing you. It's you failing yourself. You haven't been able to get yourself out of the depression that you're in. That comes from within. You complain about the relationship, then about your job and then about your living conditions.
You have to find one positive thing and go from there. I've worked with children with terminal diseases who know that they are going to die. But they don't dwell on that fact. They make use of the time that they DO have. YOU have your health and YOU are living. What you do with it is up to you. You can spend the time complaining about how crappy your life is, or you can get up and refuse to beat yourself up.
That's what the issue is. YOU are beating YOURSELF up. And by the same token, YOU can get yourself out of it. But it is a choice. And it has to be YOUR choice.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
