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[steveh27]

Bad weekend - this is going nowhere. A friend mentioned to me that the W had friend-ed the OM on FB on 5/6, the day after her admitting EA to me ... and also "liked" the restaurant he works at a couple days ago. I confirmed. It obviously came up in conversation since she decided to talk about R yesterday while we had a rare 20 min alone.

Her intent was to gauge where "I" was at with all this - and had I come to grips with the situation. Well since I had put my initial anger away about the EA initially and was trying to detach and 180 during this time without showing these emotions, they finally came to a head when she admitted she had talked to him since a couple times. Clearly this is how she wants to move forward, and mentioned again how she doesn't love me anymore.

We got angry and said some hurtful things. We calmed down and she asked me about mediation again ... I didn't have a good answer as I'm in a different place now. I said I don't know anymore - but I know that we are not spending $4k each to settle this, since this will leave us in a terrible spot financially. I added that there are online tools that can walk you through this process, so if this is what you want, then please find out and move forward.

I took off my ring and put it on the dresser last night. I wanted to throw it out the window of the car last night while we were driving home after our talk, as mad as I was - because symbolically that's what I feel like shes doing. I didn't as it would've have just looked dramatic and I would've regretted it.

Sorry guys I feel defeated. I know my W pretty well and she is strong minded when she wants to be. If she can't see or want to see the damage that will incur because she is blinded by the thoughts of another, I can't endure the pain that will follow. Although part of me knows she is in a different place with me emotionally also, but the hope of the OP I feel is making her decision easier.

Talk about detached ... this is the first time my emotions have gone to this point about her. I wish I could say I will keep the faith here, but reality tells me to protect whats left of my heart and move on.