Well today is a work day so i did go to work and there are 2 coworkers here. it helps. I also had a bad bad thing happen at work started yesterday. i have most of it fixed but can not seem to get a few things to work anymore. So im ok at this point i guess but all i do is think of or wish i was just going to go home to wife like i did at one time and hold her kiss her aask how her day was all that stuff. sometimes go out for dinner. or with swimming weather we would swim in the pool i have well had. I have to move and almost all out. but no place to go yet. no time to look. so going to dads but that is depressing too. and i do not need to add to mine. Trust me i feel better but i know that my depression is getting the better of me. and i keep praying for Gods help for me and for my Wife. I just hurt and many other feelings. my boss came in and he see it on my face. everyones does.
i had to go to fish store yesterday and the guy that is always there told me i have lost alot of weight. well if you dont eat you will. and i dont eat like i did when with wife. yes i did all the cooking but i have no one to cook for anymore. and i moving and when i do find a place it will not be close to my mother in laws house and i miss her stopping by or beeping to say hi as she goes to work everyday.
