Trying to stay in it, keeps getting harder. #3

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lovethehub-thank you for your concern! I'm not worried about it being physically unsafe. That has never been an issue. I am worried about what it will do to me mentally & emotionally. H is not in his right mind & has been saying very hurtful & demeaning things. I just wish I knew if this is going to be the 'new him' or if it's because of our situation?

I have another doctor appt in a couple of hours. Now I'm not so sure I'm ready to tell H it's twins or not? Why is it my mind is so hung up on this? Right now I think I'll wait see how my appointment goes & how I feel after that. I'm so confused right now.