Backwards! We moved backwards last night, not that we were really moving forward, but there was civility. H panics over a bad dream about evil taking one of our sons. He was so shaken his anger erupted as a way to cope and he lashed out.
I told him don't talk to me or be around my home with this spew, don't take my resent civility as acceptance. He thought I was accepting of the sitch, I said no, I am standing my ground, and acting true to my nature w/out letting you influence my actions, I'm not reacting!
He went on about junk calling me an angel, he's the devil, bla bla, and I said I was done with him! I'm done with all that comes with this! He threatened to move out then, I shrugged, he said he's going to have to take some money, I shrugged, he said he can live here and be quiet again, I said you don't get it, I'm done!
He threatened to not work today to talk to me, luckily he had to go! He left saying you've done nothing wrong, I stared!
He spinning again, he wants company in that, I'm not playing!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
