Okay I'm feeling done. dd18 had her final symphony concert tonight and we had family dinner planned afterwards with MIL, she invited H and the couple he lives with. They are 40 min late to dinner because they had to stop for a pre-drink. Then H had 3 drinks at dinner and gave a stupid toast to d18 about 'courage under fire and learning to meaning of commitment'. Barf!
Done done done.
D15 had new boyfriend at dinner and got in the car afterwards and started crying because she was embarrassed. D18 just said 'wtf!'.
I'm glad for the new set of skills I learned while db but I have no respect for H that doesn't respect himself, his kids or me. And having to drink in order to suffer through a family dinner - my same old accusation from a year ago - is making me feel really done.
I loved hearing d18 play, I enjoyed dinner with dds and their bfs, even MIL, and I acted kind and loving to H and his friends. I'm a better me, but a me that is ready to be done. We have MC in 10 days, it will be a good time to figure out what is the next step because limbo is stupid and useless and reconciliation is not in our near future. But I need better co-parenting support and accountability. Feels sad I've had faith in him for the last year but he can't deliver.
