I find weekends, especially long weekends tough, as the communication between h & I stop. ALL WEEKEND. I am learning new things to do on my time off. Went to church today (180), and then went for a 2hr hike with friends/neighbours. VERY GOOD. Many beautifil sights and smells along the trail.
But, I still long for this time to spend with h. I miss him. I feel like we are wasting time (that could be happy). But, I also realize he is not himself now, so what am I missing? I am missing what I thought I could never lose. I can't believe he doesn't want to spend time in our family way. He is losing out. I feel my D & I are losing out too.
M:46 H:49 T:20yrs myD:22 H distant summer/12 H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12 BD: Dec 2/12 asked me begin to move end of Jan/13 moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff) "agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)
