I really do see what everyone is saying. I don't expect this to change anything. I have come to accept that she is gone. My thing, that seems a little different from most on here, is that I never said this stuff to her. I found DB quite early in my sitch so I kept quiet about many things. I didn't keep this stuff to myself because I was hurt, I kept it to myself because I tried to give her space. I just hate to think that I never was able to speak my mind.
The present tense of "I cannot" should not be in there, I agree.
M 37 W 36 T22 M14 D8 D4 8/2012 distanced BD 11/2012 (likely wants D. Feelings have changed.) W move out date: June 8th.