I went to church today (180), they spoke about letting go and letting God have his way. I need to do this. I need to let go.. I just don't know how, when I really don't want to let go. I know I need to, but how.

I surrender.

Please God, take my rel'p. Please bring it back to me once repaired. I give my h to you. Please give me strength to follow through this. Please hold my hand and guide me.

M:46 H:49 T:20yrs
myD:22
H distant summer/12
H sleeping in b'ment: Nov/12
BD: Dec 2/12
asked me begin to move end of Jan/13
moved Jan 7/13 (left my stuff)
"agreed" to "working on r" Mar 3/13(lipservice!)