About the meditation, I started with guided meditation, I couldn't sit with my own thoughts at that time. There are lots of online resources.

If you don't want to move in with your Dad, don't. Do what's best for you.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss