Need info on WAH's access to home

[stilllookingup]

I'm actually jealous your H texted you Happy Anniversary because mine didn't on our "wedding anniversary" in April. (I know I know we have 2... well 3 anniversaries because we r an intl couple. We officially got married on paper in my country - 1, had a small reception there - 2, and an official big one here -3) so people here send us HA messages in April because that's what they remember but H and I always weighed Oct one more because that's when we became H and W) I'm scared for Oct one to come

I know what you mean by H looking less attractive. I'm sure most WAS are because if our improvements. I'm getting fit more than ever and he still looks the same. I still find him attractive but def same.

I'm in my 30's and my best friend at work is I think 56 or 57! I love hanging out with older women because they are wise and do less gossip. I think it's completely fine!

[Tonkarider]

Alright now my life is getting out of control & I need major advice on several things.
- I was out at a party drinking & having a good time - left my phone in the car - went to the car to get something - looked at phone & there were 3 very angry texts from my WAH that I have spent way too much money since he left. He left me his credit card, checks & was telling me everything will remain the same I just won't be around. In the beginning (a month ago when he left) I asked about every single purchase by text. Then I didn't ask & treated my girlfriend to a dinner at just a Chinese restaurant & started buying some stuff & I would get a text "What did I buy at sunglasses hut?" For example & I would text back & always leave the receipts with my WAHs mail. Well I was so drunk & angry when I saw those texts that I sent him a text that don't worry since he destroyed my life I was just living in the moment & bought the book "Final Exit" (which I did) so soon my spending would be done & I wouldn't be a burden to anyone, & he was going to have all of my stuff (Both houses r in my name & my parents) He texted back sorry he didn't want to hurt me.
- At that party I started a PA/EA with a much younger man whom I had met years ago. It has made me feel really great of course but now I think I have transferred my emotional upheaval onto this relationship & am obsessing over when I am going to see him or hear from him. I thought this would help me get my mind off my WAH a little, give me a lot of confidence, & help me not make all the mistakes with my WAH like needy texting, crying, thinking about suicide, etc. There had been no sex in my marriage for close to 2 years because of my WAH pushing me away & he had 2 surgeries - one open heart surgery & said he had problems with ED. So to be pursued & have an EA/PA felt fantastic at first. -But now I think it just has transferred the pain & I have created a monster. My best gf knows about everything & she says its a train wreck but lately I have been trying to be less needy on her for obvious reasons & she never wants to go out because she is in a just wants to be alone stage (She is single & sick of "bad" men right now).