I panic for a day and i come back ... The truth on the matter is : if he does it or doesn' t, it has nothing to do with me. I have no say.. He doesn' t want to hear anything, he just wants to be heared.. He has female friends all over the region... He texts me when noone else wants to listen to his whining.. He is negative, angry, depress and drinks daily. He creates a hell on earth for himself and surrounds himself with people of the same state of mind as him. What gets to me is that he brings those people in my kids life. I guess that is the lesson for them.. They will learn from my behavior and their father' s behavior and create their own life from what they have experienced.. I grew up with an alcoholic father and alcohol is a BIG NO NO for me. My ex was abandonned from his father and his mother put booze and boyfriends ahead of her kids.. What lesson did my ex get from it? I don' t undestand... He became everything he said he would never be !! And by doing so, became someone i see as repulsive and disgraceful. Someone i dispie.. I have texted him two final words on mother' s day telling him to ERASE ME. He hasn' t contacted me since but has been calling the kids constantly and STILL doesn' t show up on visitation nights... My oldest got into a heated arguement with him over school. Her forms weren' t filled properly and now, we are running out of time. He is putting blame on her.. Surprised? No, not at all. We are at the point that we just don' t care anymore. We will do it with or without him.. We knew and we prepared. 4 years in counting.. Still getting stronger..
