Sweetie, you are living in fear. I understand that you still love him and he's the father of your children but he's not the same man you married right now. You don't know this person. What he's doing is not OK.

It sounds like you have a plan, and that's good. Make sure your parents have a clear idea of what's going on.

Protecting yourself the best way you know how is not being cowardly.

Remember there is help out there.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss