well ok just woke up well been up since 6am. I have so much to do and just do not know what to do. I am just so screwed in the head. I need to get stuff out of this house but just cant seem to get to do it and honestly no idea where to start. WAW really turned my entire life upside down. Why cant she just come talk to me i just want it to be how it was before. but i know im nutz
Am i just crazy or obsessed that i still want to try to work this out after this long. Have there really ever been any one this stuff worked for. Yeah i have read the stories but are they really true. Again I am just so messed up and i blame all this on my WAW . I know i have alot on my plate seems all at one time biggest thing is i need to move back home as i can not seem to find a place to live because of my dog. i will not let him go he is all i have.I need some hope i need something Good to start to happen in any part of my life. I need something to get me unstuck.
Im not going to file divorce or separation. But i just keep thinking the long this goes the less chance i have. i mean cmon i need to get reaal here but still want hope. I have no time to read DB or DR book at this point.
Im not sure how much longer i can go feeling like this. Why do i feel like im the victum and i will never recover. yes im depressed and down and everything negative. I am so [censored] up in in my head the way i feel everything. I feel that everything i am doing im doing because of my feelings and not thinking. i ask for God to hel but i just feel he is not doing anything. im so alone. help
