She is also questioning me more about the changes in me, and why now after all this time. I know this is how it is supposed to work, but never thought she would care enough to ask.
I am trying not to read anything into this, positive or negative. I am just going to carry on as I am and adhere to the above goals.
Just make sure to not showboat your changes, or even mention them. Do them quietly for yourself. They will often say it's "Too little, Too late". Don't be discouraged by this. Carry on.
My wife has told me how they laugh about how GF's BF only started doing things she wanted him to do after she dumped him. So know that any changes must be what YOU want, for YOU, not to win her back. This doesn't mean she won't find these changes attractive, given enough time.
When I told W I was taking up a drawing course, she scolded me: "I told you you had talent, and now it takes this (BD) for you to do anything about it." -Ouch.
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My W seen Pink in concert recently. The following Pink song was written about her own failing M. I believe her and Hubby have R.
Just Give Me a Reason
Right from the start You were a thief You stole my heart And I your willing victim I let you see the parts of me That weren't all that pretty And with every touch you fixed them
Now you've been talking in your sleep, oh, oh Things you never say to me, oh, oh Tell me that you've had enough Of our love, our love
Just give me a reason Just a little bit's enough Just a second we're not broken just bent And we can learn to love again It's in the stars It's been written in the scars on our hearts We're not broken just bent And we can learn to love again
I'm sorry I don't understand Where all of this is coming from I thought that we were fine (Oh, we had everything) Your head is running wild again My dear we still have everythin' And it's all in your mind (Yeah, but this is happenin')
You've been havin' real bad dreams, oh, oh You used to lie so close to me, oh, oh There's nothing more than empty sheets Between our love, our love Oh, our love, our love
Just give me a reason Just a little bit's enough Just a second we're not broken just bent And we can learn to love again I never stopped You're still written in the scars on my heart You're not broken just bent And we can learn to love again
Oh, tear ducts and rust I'll fix it for us We're collecting dust But our love's enough You're holding it in You're pouring a drink No nothing is as bad as it seems We'll come clean
Just give me a reason Just a little bit's enough Just a second we're not broken just bent And we can learn to love again It's in the stars It's been written in the scars on our hearts That we're not broken just bent And we can learn to love again
Just give me a reason Just a little bit's enough Just a second we're not broken just bent And we can learn to love again It's in the stars It's been written in the scars on our hearts That we're not broken just bent And we can learn to love again
Oh, we can learn to love again Oh, we can learn to love again Oh, oh, that we're not broken just bent And we can learn to love again
M: A really long time. Crisis: 5 years. She's still worth it.
Life is never made unbearable by circumstances, but only by lack of meaning and purpose. -Viktor Frankl
